Katharine offers a
very personal and vulnerable account focused on practical advise
about hope to cope better with the mix of depression, anxiety and
self-doubt.
For me she perhaps
talks about God too much although she is honest about the ways in
which Church can be part of the problem when in theory it should be
being part of the solution.
While I found it
difficult to warm to this book it was really helpful in moving me
another step along the journey to admitting that I have “anxiety”
as a thing and that most of my current [gin-based] coping strategies
are unhealthy.
In particular she
introduced me to the concept of a “replay” - the concept is new
to me but the experience isn't. I do that all the time – that I
sometimes lie in bed and replay and beat myself up about things I did
20 years+ ago is not normal – and that acknowledgement is progress.
That I remember
every failure and have forgotten every success – that I am driven
by the desire not to end up looking stupid – ending up looking
ridiculous because I am tongue-tied by the fear that what I would say
would reveal my inner stupidity. I find small talk painful because of
a belief that no-one would anything I say interesting so stand there
silently at the edge of the circle.
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